Deal with it.

Okay so there’s this girl…I know, you probably feel bad for me cause you have 99 problems but a bitch ain’t one, right? But seriously, I need help with something. Okay so I used to like her… A lot..but I’m having my doubts. I have so many thought s I want to but down right now but don’t have any of of it thought out enough yet. First off I know I’m not perfect, but I always tried to be for her. She has always been bad at sticking to plans we would make, but I tried to look past it and enjoy the times we would spend together. But it’s getting a lot worse. I’m almost positive she has cancelled more times than what we have actually spent together. It’s getting really hard to not get mad, because I know if I tell her how I feel, she’ll think I’m the biggest ass hole on the planet…she has had her fair share of boy friends in her life. She has slept with three guys (not me) and one of them was last night. When she told me, I was shocked because this was her first time hanging out ever. We have hung out about 5 times at my house over the past like 3 months. We were alone for one time and she never said anything about sex….sorry getting off on a tangent. I’m sure of my nine followers almost none of you are still reading, if you even started, but if you are, it means a lot and I would really like some insight from you. But lately ive been wondering if it’s worth it. I love spending time with her, but when she cancels it makes me feel like Im doing something wrong. Which is very possible, but I don’t know what it could be. I’ve always tried to be nice and done everything I could to make her happy. So today I told her I was going to the Avengers with my parents (because Im a loser with no friends) and I asked her if she wanted to come and that we wouldn’t have to sit with my parents because it would be awkward. And she said (actual quote) “I’ll pass, gonna go fishing or golfing or sleep” at 5:30 it wouldn’t make sense to do any of that, but I just knew she was blowing me off again (not in a good way though) and the entire movie I couldn’t help but wonder what I could’ve done to make her not want to go anywhere with me. I just want to know if it’s worth it anymore…please help. If any of you read this entire thing I will love you forever. :) just message me with suggestions.

Also, we have made plans to hang out on Wednesday, I bet you anything she cancels them. You can make wagers with me if you want…it’s not like I’m gonna lose.

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